this is when i forget to breathe and all the things i scripted they sound unfounded

I am in a crazy state right now...

I'm just sitting here in my dark room listening to Death Cab For Cutie and seriously thinking about things. It's almost as though I'm living in this completely surreal dream right now and I can't tell what's real or not, or what I've done and said or what I've only ever imagined. I'm scared, but I'm just letting it wash all over me...