Monday 3 May 2010

i'm letting go of all i've held onto

Hey babes,

I have found some flatmates and an apartment to move into this week!

It will be the third time I have moved out of home and I'm only twenty years old- you have to admire my resilience. I saw the advertisement for this place on the classifieds and sent the girl an email, we got some juice, and I have to pack up my bedroom tomorrow. Everything happens so fast. These girls seem really fun and slightly loco, so I have a feeling that it will be a bit of a party pad. Suits me just fine. The apartment is wonderful, even though I have the small bedroom again. Lucky I'm a minimalist.

So, goodbye again, family home. I might be back if this doesn't work out. But I hope it does, if only for the sake of my pride. The blog might be a little quiet this week due to uprooting yet again, but  promise I'll be back with updates as soon as it is practical.

Also...I wouldn't normally blog about this because it's personal, but I broke someone's heart today and feel so sad about it. I am the worst person on Earth, but sometimes things just don't feel the way you think they should feel, and that's when you have to change the situation. I'm trying to be positive but it's hard right now. Can everyone please throw a bit of excess love out into the universe for this person, if you have any spare? He is lovely...just not perfect for me.

3 comments:

Dylana Suarez said...

Just came across your blog!

It is lovely!

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Taryn said...

yay for a new flat! but boo about the heartbreaking...life is a rollercoaster that's for sure

Diane said...

I love party pads. They're the best place to hang out in and I wish I actually lived in one (instead of with my parents...ugh, I should really get a job and move the fuck out). Also, I do admire your resilience; good luck with the move!

Breaking someone's heart is never easy. I've had to do it this year and it was pretty much one of the worst things I've ever had to do. He's come back four different times since then, asking for my inclusion in his life again, and I've had to break his heart during each of those four times. It's heartbreaking, to be rather punny and to say the least. But you've got to do what you have to, so what you did was probably for the best!

Haha, I know we just keep on saying that we should hang out but one day it will happen! My bestie and I are planning trips - road trips across the States, trips out of the country, etc. - and we're not ruling out Australia! It may take a while, but we're just destined to meet up and hang out one day I think. But please don't smother me in my sleep. That's just bad karma.