Thursday, 26 November 2009

home is wherever i'm with you

Ah, the sweet beginnings of summer: wearing the same clothes for three days in a row, eating fruit for breakfast lunch and dinner, going indoor rock-climbing in thirty-eight degree heat and nearly fainting, swimming in a river, staying up late watching James Bond films, drinking beer. I'm loving it right now. Except tomorrow my weekend is over and I must don my uniform and perform my retail duties for another week, and then I do not love it so much.

I'm going to go eat a mango, maybe have a nap. And then barbecue tonight!

Tuesday, 24 November 2009

he bit dakota fanning on the face

Hi all,

I have been doing exams, working, seeing some friends, feeling exhausted, swallowing vitamins, drinking beer and eating ice-cream.

Also, I, uh, taught myself how to upload bigger pictures. See? It's my face, UP REALLY CLOSE. I do apologise, there is still a lot of learning to be had.

So...some stuff is going to be happening soon! I'm working on getting my drivers licence, and then I will need to purchase a car. I'm also moving out in a month so I will need to purchase some furniture. I smell an empty bank account on the horizon.

And right now it is coming into the "festive" season, which means a lot of fresh prawns and white wine, purchasing Christmas presents, eating fruit mince pies which I pretty much look forward to all year, and generally having fun. I plan to see my friends as much as possible (Keith: BUY A PHONE), wear my cutest summer clothes and jewellry, and enjoy the last moments living with my family before I fuck off to my new apartment.

I hope 2010 will be a good year....only a couple of months to go...

Sunday, 22 November 2009

lizard fever


My Sociology exam is first thing in the morning tomorrow and I am four chapters behind and I have had approximately five hours of sleep over the past two days, as well as working, and fuck!! I am going to eat so much almond nut spread tonight while I study, I just know it...damn it.

On the (comparatively small) upside, I have begun the process of learning to use my Canon SLR and I had my first driving lesson, so the ball is rolling on both a new hobby and a vital life skill. It's about time.

So. I am a bit fucked up now for a few reasons but I don't really feel like disclosing. Instead, I think I'll show you photographs that I took of some lizards in the Botanic Gardens. You can click on the pictures to enlarge, which is kind of cool because you can see their weird scales and ears. I don't know how to make the pictures big yet- can anyone help?

I had better hit the books again, even though my eyes are stinging from reading and all I want to do is sleep. What a mess.

Thursday, 19 November 2009


This Canon digital SLR now belongs to me...MADNESS. It's an EOS 400D, and it will be completely amazing if I can learn how to use it properly. I'm pretty much in love with it...keep touching a little pet or something.

Thanks Jamal (even though you don't read this blog)! It means a lot to me. Keith, if you have internet right now, and are using your precious internet time to read my somewhat trivial blog, what kind of camera do you use? Also, you are being enlisted as part of my assistance team to help me learn. OK? OK.

Tuesday, 17 November 2009

when i held your throat so tight

Today I booked my very first ever driving lesson for 3pm tomorrow. So this could be goodbye. Anyway. I am going off to hit up some Indian food and watch television on the couch. I did a lot of study today.

Hey bronze Doc Martens, sorry I never wear you. This summer it will be different I swear.

long live luella, even though they have no money to make clothes anymore which i find really sad and also a waste

So I know this is, like, so totally last year's collection, but you know what? I don't give a shit! That doesn't make it any less perfect.

I want to eat, sleep, drink, smoke, sleep, study, read, and get into a punch-up wearing Luella. Totally bad-ass.

Luella S2008RTW
(photographs from

Monday, 16 November 2009

i'm worst at what i do best and for this gift i feel blessed

I like to: read magazines, take photographs, cuddle and kiss, smoke a cigarette sometimes, go to the gym, watch DVD's, eat a bagel, wear interesting clothing, take showers, write a long email, drink wine, a solid sleep.

I don't like to: feel unwanted, eat unhealthy foods, get sunburnt, have nightmares, wear tacky jewellry, chase people, cry, get a headache.

Saturday, 14 November 2009

tastes just like cherry cola

Lately I have been:

(1) Watching the "Karate Kid" films. Ralph Macchio is off-the-planet gorgeous.

(2) Trying to save my money (which means eating a meagre portion of salad and an apple for lunch every day, which is okay by me anyway) for when I move out again/purchase a car/pay for driving lessons.

(3) Swallowing an entire handful of mixed-bag vitamins and minerals every morning, just for fun (Vitamin D? Why not! Spirulina? Sure! Garlic + Horseradish? Disgusting, but I'll take it!).

(4) Falling off the social radar entirely. Tried to make friends with this cat outside, but it freaked and ran as soon as I clicked the door open...later found out that this behaviour was due to the fact that my Dad had previously chased it out of the yard with a bottle of citrus spray for trying to hunt the pet guinea pigs. Okay.

(5) Drinking some beer.

Thursday, 12 November 2009

i cursed myself for being surprised that this didn't play like it did in my mind

Instead of writing my essay which is due in a couple of days, I am gazing at Death Cab For Cutie video clips on YouTube. Ben Gibbard is just amazing...I have goosebumps.

I want something amazing to happen to me. Something life-changing. In a good way of course (I don't want to lose my legs in an accident or anything).

Come on!

Wednesday, 11 November 2009

new york i love you but you're bringing me down

I have forced myself into isolation for a few days in order to finish this essay. Also, got my hair cut today- all the ratty ends are gone (down the front of the hairdresser's low-cut shirt). It feels soft...

I want someone to cuddle me and bring me chocolate and stroke my freshly trimmed hair and actually care that I haven't been out of this room for 12 hours. Hello! I could be dead in here, choked on an ice cube or something!


Tuesday, 10 November 2009

like a rat in a cage

It's going to be the new year in a couple of months. I will be twenty years old, and I want to start getting things sorted so I will be prepared for next year (whatever it brings). So, starting from today, I am going to:

  • Dispose of any junk clogging up my bedroom. I'm moving out soon and I can only fit the bare minimum in my new apartment. I will only keep the most basic of possessions: my bed, my desk, my computer, my best clothing and shoes, a select few books and magazines that I cannot bear to part with, my journal, my face cream, my handbag, my mobile phone, my favourite perfume, and only the most prized of my jewellry.
  • Strip back my wardrobe. Reduce it entirely. I want a capsule wardrobe, where every item matches with every other item, and I will like them all. Simplistic. Audrey Hepburn totally knows what I'm talking about.
  • Continue being pescetarian. I feel healthier and slimmer this way, and fresher. Meat is really heavy. It's so cheap ordering vegetables over steak at restaurants as well. Plus, I just kind of like the confusion surrounding the notion of being pescetarian. Adds some mystery.
  • Write this English essay, study for my Sociology exam, and finish what I started this semester. It would be weak to give up now, two-thirds of the way through.
  • Do whatever the fuck I want.

Tuesday, 3 November 2009

i'm on holidays

How I have begun my holidays:

(1) Went to a Halloween party where Kasha played and dressed up as a corpse bride with my buddies, a cat (Catwoman?) and a witch.

(2) Hung around with my ex-housemate Sam. Watched boarding-school girl movies, drank lime-infused beer, ate some popcorn, fell asleep.

(3) Spent a colossal five hours yesterday watching Season 2 of "Gossip Girl" on my tiny television.

(4) Purchased TWO magazines, costing me a total of: an out of control addiction which I need to learn to control before I move out in December, when money will be tight (hey guys, can I come over for dinner occasionally?).

(5) Went to the horse racing with the girls. Hot and sweaty but totally worth it to strut our stuff on the catwalk at the fashion parade.

Tomorrow I will wake up sweaty and flustered and tangled in my nightie, jump into Jo's car and sweat it out at the gym. Then, I will see my ex-baby, and perhaps we can eat some lunch. I still always look forward to seeing him. Sad?